Dam it Micheal!!!

At first news I thought *sure he had great music BUT HE DID LITTLE BOYS* or did he. I am a bit confused about Mr. Jacksonms death. I was 3-4yrs old when I first heard Micheal sing. and like many my age there wasn't a day in the early years that the radio wasn't covered with Jackson music. I had album, posters, even a linch box. I LOVED Micheal.............................Then I grew up and we started hearing the rumors and about the pay offs. The first one I ignored, I mean Micheal was an easy target with a great pay off in the end of any accusations made. At leaste that was how I my teenage mind reasoned it all out.

Then I had kids, more rumors *more smoke leads to fire*? I do not know how to feel about all this. Any one else feeling this?

I HAVE A BLOG?????????

WOW I forgot I had this blog. Well it has been two years sence I wrote any thing. Sad thing is nothing has changed. Well the kids have gotten older 20, 18, 14. The 20yrld moved out, the 18 yrld graduated in 08, has a job and pretty much is beyond any need for mom. The 14 yrld is now 6'4" and graduating from middle school in one day. He is still in the mommy care stage but hates to be told any thing. I never knew how stupid I was until I had teenagers! People, I have given 21 years of my life to my family, gladly I would do it again.........but I am being out sourced. My kids have other intrests that have moved them past me and on to bigger and better things, thank God they are growning up and I love to see them reach for their goals and grow into "real" people, BUT I do feel a bit left behind. As for my hubby, he is moving up in his job. He is perfect at what he does. Funny thing is he is so good at it he had two supervisors fighting over who he would work for and while they were fighting another one from a different yard swoop in and claimed him. It must be nice to know that you are a desired emplyee. I would'nt know, lately all I get for my effort is pissed off kids and hate filled comments for my oppions and enforcement of the house rules.

If you read this, thank you. If you leave a comment, thank you. Please remember that your comments are read by others so lets not show our asses in public. Later.................

Two Days Gone!!!

Well Hell TRAV now I have to blog!!!

As of Jan14,2007 I am 40 yrs old.....what the Hell? I'm not sure how I feel about this. I do know that now that 'D' Day has passed I am more concerned with my weight and over all health. So here is what I am going to do. POST PICTURES.. in all my 195/200 pound glory. Why is this an event? B/c I do not take pistures. I shy away from any and all cameras.

I know that there are others out in blogger land who are struggling with weight. Who have spent a ton of money on wanting to be thin, but never really accomishing the goal. This way others can watch me lose and maybe join me.

That's all for now. The picture will be taken....yikes....and posted in the next few days.

What Actually Prompted Me To Blog

So last night, once again, I was ask what's up with my gray hair. Of course my darling niece (22) asked if it had something to do with Taylor Hicks. Yes I am a HUGE fan. My answer was NO not at all. A small lie. This man won a national competition with hair grayer than my father. So I began to think.

A little back ground. I have had a perfect Rouge (XMan) streak in my hair since 22/23. I have always colored it. I would say " No matter how old I get If I have the strength in my arm or the money my hair will never be gray". Well my thoughts on this have changed.

Why should I hide my hair. IT IS ONLY HAIR. I have plenty of it and a great cut, thank you Jeodale. I have accepted my hair after almost 17yrs. So why can't society?

Men are not pressured to encouraged to color their hair or their bald heads. And times it is even frowned on. But let a woman show her gray and she will have ppl offering to dye for her. PPl it is hair. That's it.

So as I approch the big 'Four Oh' I hav decided to let the gray in. Get used to it b/c it is here to stay!!!

Have I Been Asleep????

This blogging thing is weird! Who would have thunk it, but here I am. My spelling sucks so do not be surprised. My train of thought wanders so try to connect the dots.

Have I been asleep is the question. I will be 40 in Jan07. What the Hell my mother should be 40 not me. Her reply, her mother should be 64 not her. So I guess that is how it goes. One day last year I woke up asking myself where did the last 20yrs go. It has went to my kids, my hubby and the all around mom housewife day to day jobs. Well my kids a 18,16,12. My hubby has been in his job, classified, for 10-11yrs. I have taken care of them for 19yrs. I have cooked, cleaned, catched and carried all this time. All the while by choose. Yet know I find myself asking, what is next. After the kids then what. A house can only be so clean and a Hubby can only be please just so much until all tasked blend into 20yrs of blurred time.

I know who ever reads this will think, "well lady get off your ass and do something", or "you chose to stay at home so what are you bitchin about", last but not least, "I wish I could stay home every day."

For now I will simple blog this crap to how fully find a small amount of sanity. To clear the mommy/wife persona out of my head and find me again.

Yike spell check was on overtime !